Wazee Wa Kisa (Herbert Misango)

Sometimes you get lucky. Sometimes luckier than anyone deserves. Back in 1990, I hitchhiked from South Africa up through Zimbabwe and Zambia to Zaire (not yet renamed the Democratic Republic of the Congo), where I studied guitar for several months with Jean-Bosco Mwenda and Edouard Masengo — about which I’ve written in a half-dozen previous posts, listed below — then on to Burundi, Rwanda, Uganda, and finally Kenya.

In Nairobi, I was hoping to find some of the musicians who had played on some wonderful acoustic guitar records that I’d heard on reissues from John Storm Roberts‘s Original Music record label. Those records had been recorded in the late 1950s and early 1960s, and I had no idea how to go about finding any of the artists, or even if they were still alive. So, since I had no other ideas, I went into a music store — looking online, I see the main one was Melodica, and that might have been right, though none of the photos seem to be from that period and I can’t be sure.

Anyway, I went in and there was an older-looking white (or maybe, if it was Melodica, South Asian) man behind the counter, and I went up and explained that I was trying to find some of the musicians who had recorded acoustic guitar music back thirty years earlier.

The man looked at me like it was kind of a crazy question, and said, “Like who?”

I didn’t remember a lot of names, but I said, “Well… like Herbert Misango, who recorded ‘Wazee Wa Kisa.”

And the man said, “He’s over there,” pointing to a man standing behind another counter on the other side of the store. And he was.

Misango wasn’t playing anymore, but he was friendly and agreed to meet me that Saturday and took me to a small nightclub in a field behind an apartment complex where another of the older musicians, John Nzenze, was performing with a small group. I should have interviewed both of them; I should have had a camera with me and taken pictures. I should have done all sorts of things…

…but I didn’t. I just enjoyed meeting them and spending some time with them, and John Nzenze gave me a phone number for Fadhili William, who had recorded “Malaika,” and now was working in a gas station in New Jersey, and I eventually did interview him, back in the States, for the Boston Globe.

And, back in the States, I buckled down and learned “Wazee Wa Kisa.” It’s the only guitar part I’ve ever learned by writing it out. I couldn’t figure out the rhythmic intricacies, how the bass worked against the treble, so I made some six-line tablature paper and wrote out the bass part, then wrote out the treble over it, then sat down with what I’d written and kind of got it, and went back to the record, and eventually worked it out. I showed it to my friend Dominic Kakolobango, who has also done a nice recording of it, and he translated the lyric for me, and a few years later I came up with an English translation to sing after the original Swahili.

And that’s about it, except that my wife, Sandrine Sheon, worked with me for a while as a duo, playing clarinet, and for this one she would play a clave rhythm on a coke bottle, and I miss having her on it.

Smoke, Smoke, Smoke That Cigarette (Tex Williams, Merle Travis…and Mark Ross)

I learned this one from Mark Ross in Missoula, Montana. It was the first time I hitchhiked across country on the northern route, and I’d spent a couple of days in Spokane with Utah Phillips, and he suggested I stop off in Missoula and meet Mark. So I did, and spent a few days there, or maybe even a week. I liked Missoula and I liked Mark, and he taught me a bunch of songs, including this one. As I recall, he played it more like Merle Travis, and I’ve retained some of what he showed me and filled in the rest as best I could.

Mark also got me smoking Bull Durham roll-ups — not that I was ever much of a smoker, but for a brief period I affected that dreadful stuff. It was a romantic cowboy thing, and Mark was very much a romantic. That was before the folk scene was full of young men in hats and vests who looked like they’d stepped out of a  Depression-era photograph, and Mark was ahead of the curve. He’d come out west from New York and reinvented himself as a bard of the Montana mining region, complete with an IWW card.

The beautiful thing was that Missoula had completely adopted him as a local character; he’d make a circuit of the bars, and everyone greeted him and asked for his latest joke — he had a seemingly infinite supply of them — and he played in the local bars and at all sorts of other events, and had created a life there. It was an interesting place; I remember a couple of old cowboy saloons with interesting modern paintings, one of them a big, 19th-century style oil study of the pyramids in Giza, complete with Arabs and camels… except that in place of the pyramids it had three looming versions of the Cattleman’s Lodge, a big old local hotel that, as I recall, sold excellent hamburgers.

I came through a bunch of times over the next few years, sometimes hitchhiking, sometimes driving through on tour — for some reason, when I began touring across country in the mid-1980s half my gigs were in Western Montana and the Idaho Panhandle. (Probably the reason was that not a lot of people toured through there, so they were more open to minor talents like me.) However I traveled, I’d stop off for a day or three with Mark, and it was always a pleasure. I remember once he was booked on a big local music festival with Hoyt Axton, Kris Kristofferson, and a bunch of Texas singer-songwriters. It was a great show, but apparently a financial disaster, and, as a local, Mark saw what was coming and was one of the few performers who managed to cash his check before they started bouncing.

I have lots more memories of Mark and Missoula, and Butte, where I played two memorable gigs at the Silver Dollar Saloon, and a bunch of smaller towns — Whitefish, Kalispell, Moscow, Bonner’s Ferry… there was one gig out in the middle of nowhere, where halfway through my second or third set a guy came riding into the bar on a motorcycle, parked it in front of the stage, and asked if I could play “You Are My Sunshine.” (I could, and did.)

That was another nice thing; when I played around there, I was doing bar gigs, three or four sets, and rather than demanding the Beatles/Buffett repertoire bar crowds tended to want on the East Coast, folks were perfectly happy to hear Blind Blake or Gary Davis, or Hank Williams, or Woody Guthrie, or unfamiliar new songs by my friend Bill Morrissey — and if I played something with a bit of swing, couples would get up and dance, even though it was solo acoustic guitar and vocals.

I don’t remember ever performing this one, but by the last set I wasn’t always in shape to remember much, so I may have. It’s a fun song, and although I tend to try to reshape lyrics to fit my own voice and time, I do it as a character piece, complete with the reference to “the cutest girl in the 48 states.” I later heard the original version by Tex Williams, a classic Western Swing hit with a tight horn section, but I continue to associate it with Mark and evenings sitting around drinking whiskey and smoking Bull Durhams in his cluttered apartment in Missoula. That was more than forty years ago, and he’s in Eugene, Oregon, now, still playing, and we talk on the phone every few months. Too many people I knew back then are gone, and I treasure the ones who are holding on.

Pastures of Plenty (Woody Guthrie)

This is another in the long list of Woody Guthrie songs I’ve known since my elementary school years, and stands out for me in part because Dave Van Ronk recorded it on his second Philo album, in a period when we were spending a lot of time together. I was surprised, because Dave hadn’t recorded any of Woody’s other songs, and I didn’t think of them as his kind of music.

Of course, he knew a bunch of those songs, because everybody did, but he also was of the generation and sect that had tended to shy away from Woody’s work, in part because it had been canonized by the previous generation of folk revivalists, and in part because he tended not to like “country” or other white southern “old-time” styles. He’d come up in the Civil Rights era, and although he liked the members of the New Lost City Ramblers as individuals, he associated much of their repertoire with a culture he considered retrograde and dangerous. As he once put it, “It’s the soundtrack of the lynch mobs, and I want nothing to do with it.”

Obviously, that’s an oversimplification, but it’s not wrong: some canonical old-time players performed under the sponsorship of the Ku Klux Klan, and many more were solid segregationists and, if around today, would be solid MAGA voters. Others, of course, were populists (the left-wing kind), or connected with various union or farmer organizations he thoroughly supported, and Guthrie was firmly on the left, so that wasn’t a specific problem, but it still wasn’t his kind of music — and, again, there was the problem of canonization. He thought Dylan was, on the whole, a better songwriter than Guthrie; that Joni Mitchell was, on the whole, a better songwriter than Dylan; and that Cole Porter was a better songwriter than any of them.

So I was surprised he recorded this one. Part of the explanation was that he was in a mood to pay tribute. He recorded this on the same album as Tom Paxton’s “Did You Hear John Hurt?” and followed it with Dylan’s “Song to Woody.”But he also just thought it was a damn good song.

This is another of the songs Woody wrote in 1941 on commission for the Department of the Interior, celebrating the Bonneville Power Administration, and appearing on the soundtrack of a documentary film promoting dam-building and rural electrification. I’ve posted some others (“Grand Coulee Dam,” “Roll On, Columbia“), but this one feels more timely, due to the current war on immigrants, or migrants, or just poor people — and that’s not just a MAGA problem; the Democrats and lots of other parties in lots of other countries are getting votes by framing migrants as a problem, rather than as people trying to escape and solve problems.

I’ve written a lot about that in my blog about immigration, borders, and related issues, and will keep writing about it, because it’s the central issue of our time, along with the climate changes that are making mass immigration increasingly vital for many millions of people.

For this post, I’ll just add that my chording for this song is consciously idiosyncratic; my basic idea was just to stay on the Dm chord, adding other notes where they seemed to fit. You might call that approach modal, but I see no need to get fancy about the terminology; my inspiration was a piece Pete Seeger wrote about the virtues of simplicity, in which he mentioned that he had finally got the point of playing “Old Joe Clark” with a single chord all the way through. I’m also headed that way with “Nottamun Town”/”Masters of War,” though, as with this one, I sometimes throw in an extra note or switch to another chord if it feels right. More and more, on songs like these, I’ve been thinking of the guitar as an accompanying instrument, following the voice, rather than as providing a solid foundation. And it’s not coincidental that in both of my examples, I’m working from a minor chord, while a lot of old-time players would have played major chords, though sometimes singing the minor third. And, in case that sounds technical… I know lots of people, including Dave Van Ronk, who could easily point out where someone was singing a minor third while playing the major, but I’m not one of them. I write music history, but I’m not that kind of musicologist, and the bottom line on this arrangement is that it’s what feels right to me these days.

Boxcars (Joe Ely/Butch Hancock)

Yet another I got from Joe Ely, penned by Butch Hancock. I’ve paid tribute to that pairing a few times already, in my posts for “West Texas Waltz,” “Row of Dominoes,” and “Wishing for You,” and don’t have more to say about them… Joe reshaped my ideas about what I liked and wanted to do musically, Butch supplied a bunch of the best songs in Joe’s repertoire, and I learned a bunch of them, though I only performed a couple onstage.

This is one of the ones I didn’t perform, because I kept hearing Joe’s band in my head and couldn’t figure out how to get that sound with one acoustic guitar… but a few weeks ago I gave it another shot and I’m pretty happy with it. The bassline is key, because it gives the song that rolling train feel, and it occurred to me that if I shifted to drop-D tuning, it would fall neatly under my fingers.

In the early years of my friendship with Peter Guralnick, I mentioned my passion for Joe — who he liked, though less passionately — and he told me that he’d tried to get Sleepy LaBeef to do this one, but Sleepy was a serious churchgoing Christian and couldn’t see himself singing the third verse. To me, that verse seems the opposite of blasphemous, but in any case I love this one for the train feeling rather than the philosophizing.

I was never a full-on train guy, but I read Bound for Glory as a kid and did one trip across the West on freights, and a couple of years later got kicked off a boxcar I hopped out of Minneapolis… some of which I’ve written about in my posts on “Danville Girl” and “Vigilante Man”. I haven’t hopped a freight in many years and don’t expect to try it again, but I still enjoy watching them roll past, and keep an eye out for cars that might be good to ride.

Hoochie Coochie Man (Willie Dixon/Muddy Waters)

I have to start this post with a Dave Van Ronk story: As he told it, he was playing on a blues festival someplace and arrived late, not knowing who else was on the bill. He rushed onstage and did his show, ending with a romping, stomping, macho version of “Hoochie Coochie Man…” and walked off to find that Muddy Waters had been watching from the wings.

Dave was consumed with embarrassment, but recalled, “Muddy was very gentlemanly, as always. He put a hand on my shoulder and said, ‘That was nice, son… but you know, that’s supposed to be a funny song.'”

I’ve never been entirely sure I believe that story, but I took it to heart. It’s the same point John Hammond made about how people miss the humor in Robert Johnson’s lyrics: like, “You can bury my body by the highway side/ So my old restless spirit can catch a Greyhound bus and ride.” A lot of blues lyrics are funny — not only funny, but also funny. Like NWA’s lyrics; a lot of people who thought “Fuck the Police” was scary were surprised when Ice Cube started writing comedies, but if you actually listen to it, that record was as funny as it was angry.

Willie Dixon wrote this one and gave it to Muddy, and it changed Muddy’s career. It was by far his biggest hit, but that wasn’t the only thing; it was fundamentally different from the deep Delta blues style that originally put him on the map in Chicago. For one thing, his early hits featured his ferociously amplified slide guitar, but he didn’t play on this one. For another thing, it was clever, and funny.

When it hit, the R&B audience picked up on that. Within a few years, there were lots of other songs that used the trademark “Hoochie Coochie Man” riff, and virtually all of them were funny: Ray Charles’s “It Wasn’t Me,” Ruth Brown’s “I Can’t Hear a Word You Say,” Johnny Guitar Watson’s “Gangster of Love…” and three that I’ve already posted about: Chuck Berry’s “No Money Down” and The Coasters’ “Riot In Cell Block Number Nine” and “Framed.”

I’ve rarely performed this one, because frankly I felt ill-equipped and silly singing the big, scary, macho lyric… but it recently occurred to me that I didn’t have to pretend to be Muddy Waters, or even Dave Van Ronk. So I started fooling around with it, playing with the lyric rather than trying to puff myself up to fit it, and discovered that it was fun. Like it was supposed to be.

Not incidentally, Willie Dixon started out doing funny recitations — he recalled that as a teenager in Mississippi he printed up a dirty version of the “Signifying Monkey” toast to sell to his schoolmates, and when he moved to Chicago and went professional he bowdlerized it, added a chorus, and made a hit recording with the Big Three Trio that was covered by Cab Calloway and Count Basie as “The Jungle King.” And there were lots of others: “Wang Dang Doodle,” for example, which reworks an older toast, “The Dance of the Freaks.” (I get into some of this in my book Jelly Roll Blues.)

Wishing For You (Joe Ely)

This is neither the first nor the last Butch Hancock song I learned off Joe Ely’s terrific string of records in the 1970s. (Actually, I just checked, and this is off his 1981 album, Down on the Drag, which was not quite up to that standard, but still had some killer tracks.) I’ve already posted “West Texas Waltz” and “Row of Dominoes” (the latter of which I also recorded on my CD, Street Corner Cowboys), as well as Ely’s own “Because of the Wind” and “Me and Billy the Kid,” and there are more to come, because I immersed myself in those albums, and credit them — and later Joe’s solo live shows — with transforming my ideas about what I wanted to be playing and how, and why.

I know that sounds over the top, but somehow Joe showed up exactly when I needed him. I’d come out of my year with Dave Van Ronk playing a huge repertoire of Van Ronk songs, and a lot of old blues guitar arrangements, and some half-assed swing… and yet, I had always loved rock ‘n’ roll, and a lot of my skills were better suited to country music, which I had never understood… and Joe showed up, rocking hard and playing a blend of all of that, plus some Latin rhythms, and making it all sound like solid bar-band music rather than an attempt at some kind of innovative fusion.

And that band. Lloyd Maines on steel, long before he nurtured the Dixie Chicks; Jesse Taylor on lead guitar, sometimes playing too much for my taste, but often right in the pocket; Gregg Wright on bass and Steve Keeton on drums; and Ponty Bone on accordion, adding some Mexican flavor — my guitar break on this one starts out directly mimicking his accordion break, which I hadn’t heard in probably twenty years until I just went back and listened to it, but is engraved in my brain.

And that songs. A lot of the best ones were by Butch, and prompted me to hunt up some of Butch’s albums — Van Ronk was a huge fan; he once suggested Butch was the only songwriter in the US who could have hit New York the way Dylan did — but to my tastes, Joe had picked the cream of the crop. And there were also some fine ones by Jimmie Dale Gilmore, and by Joe himself.

This isn’t one of the masterpieces — I love the first verse and chorus, but the second doesn’t stand up — and I’ve never performed it onstage and don’t expect to, but it was one of my first attempts to fingerpick a Caribbean rhythm, and I’ve been playing it for my own pleasure for almost fifty years.

Mama Tried (Merle Haggard)

As noted in the posts for “Swinging Doors” and “I Take a Lot of Pride in What I Am,” I’m a big Merle Haggard fan, and this has always been one of my favorites. It’s one of his most autobiographical songs — pretty much straight-up life story except that he was just doing a three-year stretch in San Quentin, not “life without parole.”

In an indication of how things have changed, he tried to conceal that part of his life for the first years of his career — but this song was released in 1968, shortly after the Johnny Cash at Folsom Prison LP, and between that album and Merle being hailed as the most soulful country singer and songwriter since Hank Williams, a stretch in prison became a kind of hallmark of country authenticity.

Merle tended to describe his criminal youth as a mix of unfocused rebellion and stupidity — in particular the event that led to that three-year stretch, which involved him and a buddy getting drunk and deciding to rob a local restaurant, breaking in through the back door at what they thought was three in the morning, but was actually around ten p.m. The owner recognized them and asked why they hadn’t just come around to the front. “If we’d had any sense at all, we would have just laughed and walked around to the front like it was some big joke,” he wrote in his memoir, Sing Me Back Home. Instead, “Like fools, we ran.”

He wrote this song about ten years later, and it was his fifth number one country hit, following “I’m a Lonesome Fugitive,” “Branded Man,” “Sing Me Back Home” (about a man on death row),” and “The Legend of Bonnie and Clyde.” You get the idea.

While researching this post, I learned that this was the theme song to a movie, Killers Three, which also marked Merle’s acting debut –though his appearance is limited to two or three lines and some bemused head-shaking. The movie includes a couple of other songs by him and his wife (briefly) and singing partner (long-term), Bonnie Owens, but this one is just played as an instrumental under the opening credits. The movie is a complicated tale of bootlegging, romance, and a nice boy gone wrong, produced, co-written, and co-starring Dick Clark, of American Bandstand fame. It’s up on Youtube. I’m not recommending it.

As for the song, I was startled to read Merle explaining in an interview with Paul Zollo that his approach on the recording was “trying to land somewhere in between Peter, Paul & Mary and Johnny Cash.” It would never have occurred to me that he was going for the PP&M crowd, but of course Cash had broken into the mainstream with appearances at the Newport Folk Festival and on the TV folk show Hootenanny (and a ghastly movie called Hootenanny Hoot), so that made commercial sense. And when you listen to the record with that in mind, you can hear it. It starts with James Burton playing “folky guitar” in Haggard’s words — fingerpicking a repetitive riff on a Dobro — and Bonnie Owens and Glen Campbell fill out the two-guys-and-a-gal vocal harmonies on the chorus.

I didn’t remember that. What I remembered was the electric guitar bend that comes in over Burton, which I thought was Burton, since I once heard him play it live, but turns out to have been Roy Nichols. Since the idea of the Songobiography is that I’m playing all these songs from memory, I didn’t check the record until I’d done my video, but I had that bend in my head, and the way it comes back to end the song, and kind of echo those bits, kinda sorta.

Bright Lights, Big City/Baby, What You Want Me to Do? (Jimmy Reed)

I never really learned either of these songs, but they’re both blues standards and I’ve been playing them together since the 1970s. It’s kind of a long story, but the short version is that I had a guitar stolen in Morocco in the winter of 1978-79 and needed to buy a new one, and Jasper Winn was in Sevilla, Spain, and willing to help out, and it was Carnival week, when there were lots of people in the bars all the time, and I had some harmonicas, so Jasper played rhythm guitar and I played harmonica and sang, and by the end of the week I’d made enough money that I could buy a guitar.

To be absolutely frank and come clean after all these years, we switched a price tag so I could buy a somewhat better guitar than I could afford, but in my defense it was at the Corte Ingles, a huge department store, not at a regular music store.

Anyway… I hated having the guitar stolen — it was a 1950s Gibson B-25, the first really nice guitar I ever owned (in those days worth maybe $250) — but that week taught me how to make money as a busker. Before that, I’d been doing street pitches and making almost nothing; after that, I worked bars, cafes, and restaurants and lived very well for the next few years while traveling all over Europe and on to the Indian Subcontinent, Central America, and much of Africa.

I generally played guitar, but if I wanted to work the noisy bars I’d find someone who could play a basic 12-bar blues and play harmonica, which was louder and left me free to jump around and work the room. I’d typically do a slow blues (generally “Call It Stormy Monday,” a choice I actually feel guiltier about than switching the price tags, since it is so, so, so overdone…), then “Johnny B. Goode,” which always got a good reception, and then, if it looked like they wanted another, this medley.

I always liked Jimmy Reed’s recordings, because he sounded so relaxed, and I loved his weird harmonica playing. I never tried to play like him — honestly, I never worked on playing harmonica like anybody, except briefly on some Robert Lee McCoy licks, which I no longer remember, and I really should buckle down and study…

…like at least learn some basic tongue-blocking…

…but meanwhile, I’ve been playing this a lot recently, and it’s fun.

Grand Coulee Dam (Woody Guthrie)

A good indication of how deeply Woody Guthrie affected my life is that I grew up the son of two college professors in Cambridge, Massachusetts, and the first time I saw the Columbia River Gorge I was riding a flatcar on a freight train.

I’ve written about that trip in my posts for “Roll on, Columbia” and “Vigilante Man,” and the gorge was gorgeous, but as far as I remember I’ve still never seen the Grand Coulee Dam.

As for the song, I feel like I’ve known it forever. I don’t remember when I got the record I learned it from, but it would have been back when my mom was still required for that purpose, and fortunately was more than willing to feed myhabit. I just checked and found that  the LP I had was issued in 1967,   as the first of a cheaper line of Folkways records that had glossy covers and lacked the enclosed booklets that were standard in their main line of albums.

The song was one of the two dozen Woody wrote in 1941 on commission for the Department of the Interior, celebrating the Bonneville Power Administration, and apparently intended for the soundtrack of a documentary film. They included some of his best compositions: “Pastures of Plenty,” “Roll On, Columbia,” and “Talking Columbia,” with its great line, “Now, I don’t like dictators none, but I think the whole country oughta be run by ee-lectricity.”

Actually, looking at the list, some of the songs don’t have much to do with the Bonneville Power Administration. “Ramblin’ Round” is about the troubles of the Dust Bowl refugees, and “Hard Travelin’” is about all sorts of folks out on the road.

I’ve posted about a couple of those already, with more to come, but had passed over this one because, frankly, I’ve become skeptical about its message. The patriotism makes some sense in the context of World War II, but I grew up in the Vietnam era and was never much taken by lines like “there stands a towering fortress in the fight for Uncle Sam.” And that was before I read Cadillac Desert, which left me permanently disenamored with the big Western dam projects. And the defense of fortress USA has gotten uglier and uglier through most of my lifetime, and if I sometimes feel a twinge of nostalgia for Woody’s patriotism, for the idea of a “simpler time,” I just have to reread my post for “Roll On, Columbia,” which recalls the generally omitted verse celebrating the genocide of northwestern Natives.

All of which said, I’m posting this because this is a memoir project as well as a celebration, and this song is part of my life. The fact that I’ve carried it in my head for more than fifty years is evidence it’s a well-written lyric, and it’s set to a great tune Woody borrowed from the “Wabash Cannonball.” So here it is, a historical artifact, both personal and general, which — if I don’t overthink it — is still a lot of fun to sing.

Oh, yes, and… while preparing this post I found that the Department of the Interior documentary including snatches of Woody’s Columbia River songs is now online, and is pretty interesting:

Run You Through the Mill (Bill Morrissey)

Bill wrote a lot of mill-town songs, and in an odd mental disconnect I always put “Run You Through the Mill” in that context, imagining him and the woman racing each other through one of the big brick mill buildings along the river in Newmarket, New Hampshire; maybe the same one he was thinking about when he wrote “Snow Outside the Mill,” “Night Shift,” or “Small Town on the River.”

Of course, the song has nothing to do with mills. It’s a bitter, drunken man’s meditation on a messed-up relationship, which he’s messing up further as he sings. At least, that’s what I hear, and by now I hear it as a prophecy of sorts, because Bill messed up a bunch of relationships in the process of drinking himself to death. But he also wasn’t this guy, who, under the cloak of misogyny and self-loathing, is a romantic fiction.

People who came to Bill late — which is to say, after he’d left the lousy bar gigs behind and was performing for sober, quiet audiences that liked the singer-songwriter stuff that passes for “folk music” on NPR  — may be perplexed if I say he admired and resented Tom Waits for having built the career he wanted, playing hip, jazz-flavored songs that conjured visions of Kerouac, Bukowski, and Slim Gaillard.

It was summertime and the city was burnin’
I was drinking beer with a sweaty woman
I was stealing lines off the radio
When over the box they played “Oop Bop Sh’Bam”
And that woman sighed like a flim-flam man
And I thanked Dizzy Gillespie that night for backing up my little show.

Back in those days, Bill wasn’t a heavy drinker — he was getting drunk pretty often, but would get tipsy on a couple of beers, so if it was already a problem, it wasn’t doing much physical damage. That came later, with age and disappointment and whiskey. It’s a complicated story, and I keep being tempted to write about him, if only as a way of dealing with my anger. I was first angry about his artistic choices — he called me over and over through the years, saying he was practicing clarinet or trumpet and the next record would have some solid jazz players… and then would cut another safe singer-songwriter album, which pleased his new fans but wasn’t the kind of music he admired or liked to listen to. I have to think that was part of the reason he was killing himself — which is what I’m really angry about — but there were lots of reasons…

…and if I’m honest, the fact that back in his twenties he was writing songs like this is part of the story: there’s an obvious pathology in the macho drunken loser bullshit that admirers of Kerouac and Bukowski so often embrace.

And, of course, Hemingway. As I was preparing to record this, I happened to pick up A Moveable Feast for the hundredth time, and there it is, in the first paragraph: “The men and women who frequented the Amateurs stayed drunk all of the time…”

I don’t know if Bill was consciously riffing on that passage, but Hemingway was one of his touchstones. I remember him onstage, pausing after a song, lighting a cigarette, and beginning the routine: “He lit a cigarette – Period – Took a drag – Period – It was good – Period – He looked at the audience – Period – What a rowdy crew, he thought – Period – He took another drag – Period – Oh, my God – Exclamation point – I’ve become a character in a Hemingway novel – Period – Now, I have to go out and shoot a zebra….”

I loved that guy and learned a lot from him, and I’m angry at him, and I miss him.

Revisiting the songs that have made a home in my head